The tide is high but I'm holding on

I'm not the kind of girl who likes going out and being wild. I'm not quite the kind of girl who is party animal or a group of friends who are even as wild as that. I'm not a very adventurous girl either. I'm not the kind of girl that loves diamonds and flowers. I'm not the kind of girl who likes candle light dinners and romantic movie dates.

I'm the kind of girl who really loves to stay home - My own home, regardless of how crazy things could get. I'm the kind of girl who'd rather stay home doing crafts, self-learning new stuffs, lazing. I'm the kind of girl who'd prefer quietness than noise. I'm the kind of girl who would rather spend hours at a coffee place or ice cream shop talking bout life and everything or hang out with friends. I'm the kind of girl who likes staying in bed all day watching crazy dramas that would make you cry so bad. I'm the kind of girl who'd prefer staying home with sing-along sessions rather than going to the cinema. I'm the kind of girl who would pick a chill day by the beach or at a garden than going for a shopping spree.

Call me boring or no life but that's who I am, that's how I like my life to be. I don't like many things that many other girls would usually like. But I'm happy that way.


Now do you get it?


I'm tired. Tired of constantly having to explain myself, tired of being used, tired of being unappreciated. I'd rather you leave me be, let me have my quiet moment, than to constantly ask me what is wrong. When I say I don't feel like talking about certain something, sometimes I really just mean that, stop probing. I'm sick of people who aren't appreciative. I'm sick of people who treats me as second/third/last options, come as and when you need. I'm sick of being bossed around and still get blamed for things after all that.

I'm sorry if I worry you- any of you at all. But there's nothing to worry about, I'll be fine. Yes i may break down, I may be in an extreme foul mood, but that's probably the furthest I would go. So I'll be okay.

Sick of this thing called life. I need a break.