Stuck at the crossroad

Not sure if it's sad that I get your attention most only when we fight.
Not sure if it's sad that the longer messages I get from you is only when we fight.
Not sure if it's sad that that means we have nothing much to say to each other, other than times when we fight.
Not sure if it's sad that we can't agree that we don't understand each other especially at times when we fight.

We fight every time I try to get your attention. My fault.